Sunday, September 17, 2006
17.09.06
todae woke up rather late abt 11
after lunch at bpp i went to church
had a nice cell grp time
especially the 'da bian' game
abit distruptive now n then
due to our position at the lift lobby
aniwae the combined service was great
realli feeling nervous n all
but thru praise n worship losen up abit
then ppl shared testimony of their trip to thailand
realli great to hear them talkin
especially seeing them brave enuf
to step out n speak infront of 500+ ppl
yar so sermon was preached
by pastor chris hope from australia
then it was end of service
super lost then
needed to find john for auditions
luckily bumped into liangzhi n
he brought me to the stage
real funni first time stood on stage
after they packed up abit
calvin n john brought me to the stairs behind
super jittery
was like okay
2 on 1
hmm then it goes
was asked to sing Greatest Love
hmm dun even remember the lyrics
they sang along abit
totally cork up
hais... went out of tune obviously
super nervous
then they asked me choose song
i didnt noe wad to sing lar
said anything lor
sang chorus of the Mighty To Save
yar was shaking
sang out again
sigh
super ashamed of myself
they also feel i too kan chiong
argh did myself wrong
then asked me some qns
was abit weird lar
then yar say will come back to me
went down for dinner after tt
totally shaken
tots flooded my mind
bet i didnt make it one lar
hais... i m not tt gd also
i tink unless Zac 3 desperately needs ppl
if not i dun tink i stand any chance
aiya dunno lar
super confused n vexed
wolfed down the nasi lemak tasteless
mind realli heavy
like flooded wif tots
also dunno wad tots
hopefully it goes away
n tt God will speak to me
realli nid His guidance rite now
lost n drifting in some weird directions
if God is gonna speak thru ppl
i realli pray the person will speak to me soon
aniwae came online
remember the verse the mission trooper said
Habakkuk 3:17-18Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior.realli felt i shld rejoice also
but cant seem to think str8 now
juz trust in God to do wad nids to b done
dunno lar
realli dunno wad to do now
also realised something
i dun seem to grow spiritually
its like mayb have but cant see de
dunno lar
feel i m so young n ignorant abt lots of stuff
but wanting to do so much more than wad i can handle
like aiming at something i can never attain
wanting to play a part n help out
but cant seem to find where i can help
n like noone regconise i can help u noe
or can i?
not even sure of my capabilities, wad i m gd at
or even whether i m worthy to serve
or shld i juz remain at a gd follower
to say the truth got tot of helpin out in cell
or mayb even cafe ministry
but like wad i said
I LACK COMMITMENT !!!aiya dunno le larstill got prelims n o level to be busy abt
juz focus yeah>?
do encourage me now n then
b4 i go bonkers
or mayb breakdown
or even giveup
dunno wad i sayin lar
juz may God b my guidance ^^
Sunday, September 17, 2006
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GOOD GRADES FOR PROMOS THIS YR END
beautiful friendships :)
more n more Encounters
BrEaKtHrUs upon bReAkThRus
to open up n be more sociable
for
NEXT NOV to come faster!
learn lots n lots of stuff:
[ ]archery(legolas greenleaf)
[ ]dancing(lyrical jazz, ballroom, social, etc.)
[ ]culinary skills(da chang jing)
[ ]choral skills(become a pro vocalist :P)
[ ]piano(other musical instrument also can)
[ ]key board(either this or piano or both)
[ ]guitar(sudden urge dunno why)
[ ]martial arts(samurai storm; ranger form)
[ ]foreign language(french,jap,latin,etc.)
buy prom nite attire by this GSS
able to spend 15 hours every week to study so as to fufill the requirements to attend church all the way til end of O levels
SASTISFACTORY L1R5 FOR O LEVELS [best if single digit]
{updated: 24/02/07}