Saturday, September 30, 2006
30.09.06
prelims over
results out le
everyone not happi wif their results
me improved but not up to expectations yet
currently if after moderations
my L1R5 shld b 10
still have minimise to single digit
but anywae
i believe God blessed me wif the marks
didnt study much
relied all on God's strength
hahas
thanks God! ^^
so erm this week passed rather fast
did nothin much
got addicted to the Sims and pokemon
argh
muz stop
hais...
watched
high school musical ytd
it was
SUPERB!
wonderfully, magnificient in songs
music rox
dance n cheorography in sync
fabulous totally
hahas
enjoyed in thru n thru
going to church soon
meeting joyce
ttz it for now
blog again soon ^^
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Friday, September 22, 2006
22.09.06
hmm last paper todae
bio paper 1
skim thru the paper practically
like shadin for fun
anyhow guess
waitin for the hour to pass
soon after we went behind sch for breakfast
then waited for 174
skipped a few buses coz someone sae wan take double deck de
at the end also took single deck de
reach there rather early
started from tanglin mall
there v high class
walked abit then marched off to orchard
on the way went forum de toy r us
got scolded by the counter abt our bags
lazi put so went out
continue to walk deeper into the city
it was abt 11 plus by then i tink
walked to taka see no pizza hut
dunno where got pizza hut
abit lame cause suppose to b orchard
the town of shopping!!!
wanted to eat there to celebrate sherlyn's belated burfdae
reached plaza sing
confirmed got pizza hut
settled n makan
recharged everyone's energy
had fun in the restaurant itself
then was shopping
walked here n there
then walked back heeren
wanted take neoprint
on the way went OG fill water
then bad things started to surface
sherlyn got confronted by sales person
broke the cheerful mood
luckily everyone got over it
then happily go take neoprint
sherlyn bought a super ex bag
rather ex for me lar :)
anywae soon cheryl n sherlyn went off
leaving us, cow, pig head, hippo n monkey
hehex
went taka watson
then had mac flurry
ying, peng n yuzhen then joined us
the team splitted again
last min i n ben decide to go plaza sing there
meet ying,peng,zhen
jose,jiahui,niu go their own way
i n ben meet the 3 gals on the way
then walked to see guitar
ben ho reserved the guitar
after testin out both 12-strings
on the way back met jiahui,jose n niu
leaving the 3 gals
the 5 of us go esplanade
nv been there b4
first time
took massive amount of photos
had great fun
nice scenery
too bad v hot, no breeze
onli at merlion then have abit
the journey stopped when jose mum called
was also no early le
9 plus liao i tink
then took mrt home
great time todae
and prelims is OVER!!!
abit scared of next week results
but its over
so dun worry
wads done is done
btw realli feel bad joyce cant come church tml
hmm hopefully she can make it next wk
happy weekends everyone :)
Friday, September 22, 2006
Thursday, September 21, 2006
21.09.06
awaitin for 2 more months to pass minus one dae
then i will b legally 16
hmm...
time sure seems to fly
aniwae done wif nasal discomfort again
sigh
is like old sickness or wad lar
feeling aweful
the lock up time in the hall
after physics prac
was rather intolerable
spent time discussed stuff
talked abt tml's plan
pjc subject combi
n many other stuff
hehex
relaxing le
tml bio P1 sure many ppl nv study de
btw went lot 1 after sch
was with laypeng, yingying, yuzhen
then yongda,wanfong, daren,darren,enrui,dekkai,jiahao,bentan,lunfa
joined our company
went eat lunch
then window shopped abit
took neoprints[some of us]
then bought presents
yongda bought for his bro
then i bought belated present
wif yongda for enrui
hehex
juz nice his bottle spoilt
agreed to play bball wif them
ages since i bounce a ball
or even exercise
totally sorching
burning le
lack of water n strenous exercise
exhausted at the end
played com til now
goin sleep soon
yupp til next time
which is tml
fully detailed of wad we gonna do tml :)
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
19.09.06
AT LAST PRELIMS OVER!!!
or so to speak
at least those me scared de subjects over le
now can relax
not realli lar
having a maths p2 tml
physics p3 on thurs
and lastly a out-of place bio p1 on fri
stoopid planning of the sch
shld put more papers on one dae
too early dismiss for somedaes
its like 9 plus jiu go home
so slack lar
something spoke v strongly to me todae
i felt this bible phrase:
In your anger do not sin;....Psalm 4:4yar was like okie
almost going to blow up
cause u noe my sis n all
so irritable now n then
especially when she step on ur toes
argh
fustration
but learn to let go
hehex
yar muz realli think b4 i speak
muz control!!!
So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep, but let us be alert and self-controlled.
1 Thessalonians 5:6hehex self-control also one of the fruits of the Spirit
yupp all got to sase todae
short one todae
lookin forward to fri
and we'll
~~~CELEBRATE!!!~~~
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Monday, September 18, 2006
18.09.06
woah passed thru todae's papers le
by God's grace again
smoked thru it all
realli shameful tt i depended soo much on Him
this prelims results all the glory goes to God
realli bad of me lar
luckily bio n maths P2 over le
tml chem
muz score ar!
hehex
yar todae something happened
can say realli unexpected
but realli grateful
laypeng doin QT
yingying doin chem
we were in class
and it happened
was reading the bk joys passed to me
a real good book
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> by Benny Hinn
actually thinkin of buyin the bk
cause saw it last fri at JP de life bkshop
caught my attention
most fortunately joys lended me
n funni thing is i didnt even asked
she passed me the bk cause she tot it was a gd bk
God realli planned it all
then todae brought the bk to sch to read
was cause laypeng wanted me pei her
cause she doin QT in sch
so i decided do light reading
but it became the most vivid encounter i have
prayed abit after reading one chap
i supposed is Holy Spirit
though i not v sure
but it cant realli be me talkin to meself
yar so felt/heard somethings
first, it told me tt i shld not get into ministry yet
as i m tryin the auditions into Zac3
i heard tt i shld grow up first
tt its not time yet for serving in minstry
then another thing was tt i shld start serving
but in the ministry of reconciliation
i shld start bringin ppl to Christ
n stop avoiding the upmost calling
the Great Commision
lastly i felt me hand grip losening on the bk
prompted me to let go of something
something i was holding on
obstructin me from moving on
it was v real
can realli feel His presence
thank God for tt :)
may i grow stronger spiritually in Christ!
Monday, September 18, 2006
Sunday, September 17, 2006
tryin to comfort myself
yar readin up some verses
posting them up
Psalm 32:7
You are my hiding place;
you will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.
the main one tt spoke to me
songs of deliverance
i pray tt God will juz deliver me from this tough times
hmm feeling rather helpless now
hais...
i m totally hopeless wif ppl
can speak, talk, react, etc.
well infront of ppl
especially ppl i m alien to
sigh
one of my greatest barrier in life
how can i overcome it anyone?
wad i tink i m suffering from
Anthropophobia- Fear of people or society.
Sociophobia- Fear of society or people in general.
hmm hais...
muz trust in God to realli helpme overcome this
havin hard time rite now
highs n lows
now's a low
super low
stoopid devil
alwaes struck at unexpected timings
argh hate it
1 Peter 5:8
Be self-controlled and alert.
Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion
looking for someone to devour.
muz realli be alert at all times
i m realli not growing much
argh
but this failure is nth i guess
for God has a plan for everyone including me
n i noe tt this may not be my ministry i m called for
so i tink my niche may not b in music lor
hopefully i find somewhere i can serve
but for now its the ministry of reconciliation
gotta reach out to ppl ard me
be fishers of men
may the Holy Spirit be at work wif me:)
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting men's sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation.
Matthew 28:19-20
Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.
Matthew 4:19
'Come, follow me,' Jesus said, 'and I will make you fishers of men.'
reading up the bible
n something caught my sight
spiritual gifts was the heading
it realli set me thinking
we r realli all gifted in some wae
n we shld not sae tt wad we r doin is insignificant
here's the passage:
1 Corinthians 12
Spiritual Gifts
1Now about spiritual gifts, brothers, I do not want you to be ignorant. 2You know that when you were pagans, somehow or other you were influenced and led astray to mute idols. 3Therefore I tell you that no one who is speaking by the Spirit of God says, 'Jesus be cursed,' and no one can say, 'Jesus is Lord,' except by the Holy Spirit.
4There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit. 5There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. 6There are different kinds of working, but the same God works all of them in all men.
7Now to each one the manifestation of the Spirit is given for the common good. 8To one there is given through the Spirit the message of wisdom, to another the message of knowledge by means of the same Spirit, 9to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healing by that one Spirit, 10to another miraculous powers, to another prophecy, to another distinguishing between spirits, to another speaking in different kinds of tongues, and to still another the interpretation of tongues. 11All these are the work of one and the same Spirit, and he gives them to each one, just as he determines.
12The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. 13For we were all baptized by one Spirit into one body—whether Jews or Greeks, slave or free—and we were all given the one Spirit to drink.
14Now the body is not made up of one part but of many. 15If the foot should say, 'Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body,' it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 16And if the ear should say, 'Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body,' it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 17If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? 18But in fact God has arranged the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. 19If they were all one part, where would the body be? 20As it is, there are many parts, but one body.
21The eye cannot say to the hand, 'I don't need you!' And the head cannot say to the feet, 'I don't need you!' 22On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, 23and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, 24while our presentable parts need no special treatment. But God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honor to the parts that lacked it, 25so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. 26If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.
27Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it. 28And in the church God has appointed first of all apostles, second prophets, third teachers, then workers of miracles, also those having gifts of healing, those able to help others, those with gifts of administration, and those speaking in different kinds of tongues. 29Are all apostles? Are all prophets? Are all teachers? Do all work miracles? 30Do all have gifts of healing? Do all speak in tongues? Do all interpret? 31But eagerly desire the greater gifts. And now I will show you the most excellent way.
special thanks to www.bible.com
cause i abit lazi type from bible lar :P
may Your kingdom come
and Your will be done
as we serve Your heart
serve Your heart
let salvation flow
as ur people pray
God we long for more
long for more ~Kingdom Come~
Luke 22:42 yet not my will, but yours be done.
let no my will but YOUR will be done, God :)
Sunday, September 17, 2006
17.09.06
todae woke up rather late abt 11
after lunch at bpp i went to church
had a nice cell grp time
especially the 'da bian' game
abit distruptive now n then
due to our position at the lift lobby
aniwae the combined service was great
realli feeling nervous n all
but thru praise n worship losen up abit
then ppl shared testimony of their trip to thailand
realli great to hear them talkin
especially seeing them brave enuf
to step out n speak infront of 500+ ppl
yar so sermon was preached
by pastor chris hope from australia
then it was end of service
super lost then
needed to find john for auditions
luckily bumped into liangzhi n
he brought me to the stage
real funni first time stood on stage
after they packed up abit
calvin n john brought me to the stairs behind
super jittery
was like okay
2 on 1
hmm then it goes
was asked to sing Greatest Love
hmm dun even remember the lyrics
they sang along abit
totally cork up
hais... went out of tune obviously
super nervous
then they asked me choose song
i didnt noe wad to sing lar
said anything lor
sang chorus of the Mighty To Save
yar was shaking
sang out again
sigh
super ashamed of myself
they also feel i too kan chiong
argh did myself wrong
then asked me some qns
was abit weird lar
then yar say will come back to me
went down for dinner after tt
totally shaken
tots flooded my mind
bet i didnt make it one lar
hais... i m not tt gd also
i tink unless Zac 3 desperately needs ppl
if not i dun tink i stand any chance
aiya dunno lar
super confused n vexed
wolfed down the nasi lemak tasteless
mind realli heavy
like flooded wif tots
also dunno wad tots
hopefully it goes away
n tt God will speak to me
realli nid His guidance rite now
lost n drifting in some weird directions
if God is gonna speak thru ppl
i realli pray the person will speak to me soon
aniwae came online
remember the verse the mission trooper said
Habakkuk 3:17-18
Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.
realli felt i shld rejoice also
but cant seem to think str8 now
juz trust in God to do wad nids to b done
dunno lar
realli dunno wad to do now
also realised something
i dun seem to grow spiritually
its like mayb have but cant see de
dunno lar
feel i m so young n ignorant abt lots of stuff
but wanting to do so much more than wad i can handle
like aiming at something i can never attain
wanting to play a part n help out
but cant seem to find where i can help
n like noone regconise i can help u noe
or can i?
not even sure of my capabilities, wad i m gd at
or even whether i m worthy to serve
or shld i juz remain at a gd follower
to say the truth got tot of helpin out in cell
or mayb even cafe ministry
but like wad i said
I LACK COMMITMENT !!!
aiya dunno le lar
still got prelims n o level to be busy abt
juz focus yeah>?
do encourage me now n then
b4 i go bonkers
or mayb breakdown
or even giveup
dunno wad i sayin lar
juz may God b my guidance ^^
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Friday, September 15, 2006
busy holidaes ahead after O's
totally got it planned out
realised it after flippin my planner
its like my gosh totally filled
all my plans of classes, courses
all gone done the drain
sigh...
realli hope to have a longer break b4 first 3 months lor
hais
but aniwae here is the list of things alreadi planned in
16.11.06 LAST Paper i.e. A Maths P2 + Chem P1+P2
20.11.06 !!Moi 16th BURFDAE!! :)
24 or 26.11.06 [to be confirmed] *PROM NITE*
29.11.06-07.12.06 ~MISSION TRIP~ weee!
09.12.06-16.12.06 [to be confirmed] family overseas trip
18.12.06-21.12.06 YI camp o.O
23.12.06 +X-mas Bash+
25.12.06 ^Christmas Dae^
30.12.06-01.01.07 4e1#Class Chalet#
totally packed
hehex
hais doubt got time to work
crys :(
but aniwae hopefully can do some of the things i wanted to do
for now its still PRELIMS :(
Friday, September 15, 2006
15.09.06
woah at last one week worth of prelims down
one more week to pull thru
this whole week exams onli by God's grace
couldnt do it without Him
phew a maths todae was erm do-able not scorable
then ytd de chem prac
more time then i expected
did a few times to double check
lucky VA not typical titration
no nid do soo many times de
measure temp. onli
aniwae todae paper end super early
9 plus abt 10
went Jurong point
all shops not open yet lar
6 of us went there
cheryl, sandra, joyce, laypeng n wei yan
accompanied by 2 guitars :P
ate mac breakfast then the 3 gals went back
peng, wei yan n i spent an hour in life bk shop
hehex
so fun searching n readin stuff
went back school
ken joined us in class
they played guitar n stuff
me learnin abit here n there
did some chem paper2 qns
went church with weiyan, sis nana n joys
laypeng went home
met up with andy n jeremy[hope i spelt rite]
at church the van didnt seem to operate
was like vroom... vroom... vrooom... then died
like no engine or wad
called for help then was the engine too cold
joys prayed n God answered the prayer
the engine started n van got moving
weeeee on our way to changi airport fetch the missiontroopers
was early without much jam
explore the place abit
then waited saw pastor daniel n some other YI ppl
received the missiontroopers back from thailand
heard wad happened there
had sort of dinner cum gathering at popeye
talked quite abit
then it was back home on van
this time bro rixiang drove
drive us all home ley
so good i was thinkin droppin us at church onli
hehex...
hear their testimonials
feeling rather excited but same time worried
hmm excited to experience wad mission is like
worried abt interaction wif ppl since i not sociable de
now vexed abt tml's audition also
realli dunno whether God wants me to serve in Zac 3 anot
hais
but if realli cannot i tink tml audition will fail bah
i myself realli wan learn from them
partly also learn le can start back worship leading in Kairos
dunno ley...
feel like ulterior motive onli to learn stuff instead of serving in praise n worship
dunno lar
think i cannot make it de also
choir de is onli help support singers
cannot solo de ley
sure out of tune of something
juz hope everything goes smoothly tml
even if fail at least dun let it be akward lor
argh... cant sleep well tonite le
cant wait for me to grow up in christ
but i tink i truly lack Commitment lor
hais...
i tink even fail shld also dun give up n move on
jiayou bah!
May i be more receptive n sensitive to the Holy Spirit :)
All the best to me :D
Friday, September 15, 2006
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
13.09.06
past 3 daes passed
wif horrible prelim papers
done with physics n Combined humans
sure die le
sigh
give it all up to God le
hais
tml chem prac
hope will b easy
todae slack abit cause tml onli paper3
used computer
was crappin wif laypeng
thinkin of funni sentences such as
JesuStilLovEveryonEveNobodies
KairoSinGod'SonGracefully
BiblEncourageSaDepresStudentS
SalvatioNeveRuinStudentS'tudy
goin insane soon
hahas
anywae didnt study much
wanted to play but sis friend came
so fell asleep while waitin
then watch tv n play til now
didnt study ley
so bad of me
sigh...
i tink i gettin too complacent lar
argh
kk go focus studies le
one more week til prelims OVER!
yupp sustain the momentum for 8 more weeks
7 daes of O level exams
then waaahlah
its OVER :) jiayou everyone !!!
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Sunday, September 10, 2006
10.09.06
todae no bible study
so stayed at home laze ard
didnt accomplish anything
muz realli focus on studies
aniwae got a couple of things to mention
abt the past few daes
fri 08.09.06
was late for physics lesson
super long traffic jam
but didnt miss much also
maths lesson followed
both like didnt cover much also
aniwae went mac makan
then proceeded to cheryl hse
did some revision
but soon it became makan session
after joyce left we had instant noodles
the remainin of us also scampered abt for food
hahas
so sorry cheryl but thanks for the food :)
enrui laypeng n i went home on 187 together
sat 09.09.06
went out wif mum
long time since we went out
b4 arriving at lavender
went eat breakfast
extended passport for Mission Trip
was rather fast coz no queue
went shoppin afterwards
hehex
at last bought me my watch
my mum owe me quite long le
thanks for the watch :D
spent time window shoppin
then went our separate ways
she went home while i was stuck
dunno how to go church
but by some means managed to reach church
had musical chairs for icebreaker
prayed for yuting as she was goin for MT
it was 4 the tertiary students
the service on yesterdae was AWESOME
helped prayed for the ppl goin off for MT
then during praise n worship was rather distracted
cause heard from laypeng
tt liang zhi said i meeting john after service
was like erm... i was juz askin lar
but eventually turn my focus back on God
then during the sermon
which was on the Holy Spirit
then the most kool thing happened
we help the whole service pray
prayed for those whu dunno tongues
for baptism of the Holy Spirit
i also prayed for myself
to b empowered once again
first time ppl pray for me i fell
can really feel the presence of God
it was v strong
i spoke in new tongues
thank God for the empowerment
then it was dinner
was dragged out to meet john
was in cold sweat
but nth much happened
juz told me next week got audition
was like did i hear wrong?
my gosh i was offered a chance to join Zac 3
PRAISE THE LORD!!!
realli wanna thanks God for everything
all these wonderful things happenin in my life
muz realli grab hold of the opportunity
the first guy in Kairos to tot abt joinin Zac 3
hmm realli blessed
thank you God
but cannot b complacent
still got a prelim to tackle
where there is a 'high'
there will be a 'low'
so muz be prepared
satan muz realli be upset abt these
1 Peter 5:8
Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.
i muz b on GUARD!
fellow brothers n sisters do help me pray yeah?
thanks :)
hopefully i pass the audition n get into the ministry *.*
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Thursday, September 07, 2006
07.09.06
Happi BurfDae!!!
2 of my friends todae 16 yr old
happy birthday enrui!
happy birthday sherlyn!
noe both of them for 4 years lor
hahas
time flies
aniwae this few daes didnt do much work
todae went watch the host
sort of celebrated for enrui
dek kai n yong da was there too
did wad i should not have done todae
totally ashamed of myself
why do i give in so easily
i muz press on
i m so sorry
qian gong jin qi
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
05.09.06
hmmm long time no blog le
a week passed le
hais
now into holidae week
cant count it holidae rite?
with prelims next week
argh
more of revision week
sigh... sigh
aniwae lots of things happened
but lazi to blog it in
mainly had eng, ss papers done
bio practical also finish
had teachers dae concert
but b4 tt cause rainin
so no 5km run
stayed in class have ice breakers
super fun
hope chalet also can play til like tt mad mad
hahas
fri went back sch do physics practical
sat nl was great
craziest time ever
everyone dancing n going crazy for God
sun had cafe duty
was bored n sucky at the beginnin
but eventually turned quite fun
enjoying it actually
was in charged of the food warmer
quite fun
playin wif tongs n chicken wing, etc.
aniwae it was 2nd cafe duty i did
was totally exhausted when we went up
to wads left of bible studies
went out wif kairos to town area
super tired when i reached home
but i was definitely fun
ytd went sch for chem
after which went mac eat
then went back sch for bit of chem
sent dekkai to somerset for his dental
then me, rui, ben ho went lavender
wanted to do passport
onli ben ho accomplished
me too young nid parental presence
sigh
then we went around
wif ben ho lookin at zoids
n en rui rather pissed
aniwae ben ho bought his guitar strap
then showed us the 12 string guitar
quite kool actually
sigh too bad i dunno any instrument
then i did something rather out of the blue
was thinkin abt joinin a ministry
then thought of zac 3
was like pondering over it
then msg liang zhi
asked him stuff
was realli unexpected of me
dunno wad prompt me
aniwae wont so lucky get in de lar hor
i onli noe how to sing
so juz take it as inquiry lor
yar so erm this week
gonnna b v busy
all planned out
hmm
k lar ttz it for now
chao
Tuesday, September 05, 2006